GodDAMNit.
I just got an email telling me that I didn't get the job I'd been hoping for. It was a really good job, I'd made it through several rounds and they had told my references that I was their primary candidate, and it was pretty much my last lead. And another organization I talked to yesterday told me that they hadn't hired me because I didn't have a Ph.D, even though that wasn't listed on the job requirements. At the same time, another job I interviewed for recently didn't hire me because I was way overqualified (I was) and had too much experience.
I told myself that if I didn't get a job by the end of this month, I'd dumb down my resume and start applying for the jobs that are targeted at people with B.A.s. Maybe if they're hiring Ph.Ds for the M.A. jobs that's what I have to do anyway. But I've been looking for half a year now and I'm still unemployed (three weeks and counting) and I feel awful, I can't stop crying, this is ridiculous, I am smart and educated and competent and I learn quickly and I have over a decade of experience in this field and I am somehow less employable now than I was four years ago.
I am so sad.
(This blog will someday soon become more than job search woes and baby updates again. I'm just...yeah. That's what's going on with me right now.)
I told myself that if I didn't get a job by the end of this month, I'd dumb down my resume and start applying for the jobs that are targeted at people with B.A.s. Maybe if they're hiring Ph.Ds for the M.A. jobs that's what I have to do anyway. But I've been looking for half a year now and I'm still unemployed (three weeks and counting) and I feel awful, I can't stop crying, this is ridiculous, I am smart and educated and competent and I learn quickly and I have over a decade of experience in this field and I am somehow less employable now than I was four years ago.
I am so sad.
(This blog will someday soon become more than job search woes and baby updates again. I'm just...yeah. That's what's going on with me right now.)
posted by The Stute Fish at 12:03
6 Comments:
Oh girl, I am so sorry to hear this. You are fantastic (as confirmed by the people who you met up here who want to hire you in different cities and states). I'm sorry the job-finding has been such a suckety-suck.
a few years back i was in a similar funk. I had a stack of rejections about a foot deep (literally, I think over 30). At least you haven't ended up in Texas yet. ;) be strong. i'm rooting for you, and i know that you really are that good.
I was pretty shocked. I thought, I dunno, I'm not a super-inflated person, I've got a bad case of Imposter Syndrome, actually, but I thought surely I was well-qualified and would have no problems. Ah, hubris. I guess I'm just in some weird limbo of education/experience combo and nobody knows what to do with me, but it's pretty miserable.
Luckily, plan B is NOT to make Plan A work, but is a plan in its own right, on which I will start the gears grinding today, just in case. We're into plan A.2 (a phased redeployment of my resume) and, you know, onward is the only way through or whatever those stoic types say.
Still. Wah.
Nara, I owe you an email and a call. Just starting to dig myself out of first month fog and the baby has been sick and and and.
Anyway, dropped in to see how you were. Job stuff sounds sucky--I can't believe that they EMAILED you--that's really bad form. I hope some more appealing leads materialize soon.
A thought (from my boss, who "stopped out" for almost 20 years while she had her kids and still, now, at age 57, is about where I could imagine being at that age. It's possible.): it's okay for our careers to stagnate a bit right now. We don't have to progress, because amazingly, there's still time for all that once the kids are older and in school and such. Sometimes a job is about getting out of the house, keeping one's skills honed, and staying in the network. I don't know how eval jobs work and I'm sure it's harder, but truly, I think things will work out for you--just not how or when you had imagined, maybe. Can you cast a broader net as well as a shallower one? I don't know if that made any sense--just, maybe there are other education-ish jobs that you're well qualified for that aren't specifically eval?
OK, enough hijacking your blog:-)
-Katie
I got a rejection email copied to forty other applicants who also didn't get the job. I replied to the sender, I told him it was very unprofessional.
You WILL get a job you desire.
My Plan B is always, the leave the country. Sometimes it's plan A too.
--Anonemuus
Wow, that IS really unprofessional. As you've probably seen, I did just get a job - I'll share my karma with you!
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