Let's do the numbers
July, August, September, and October (to date), 2007
- Total days: 123.
- Days solo parenting: 39 (32%)
- Total weekends: 17
- Weekends solo parenting: 5 (29%)
- Weekends my in-laws visited (and stayed with us): 3 (18%)
- Weekends I had to work at least one full day: 5 (29%)
- Major freelance deadlines involved: 4
- Major freelance deadlines met so far: 2
- Out of town meetings requiring major driving and/or overnights: 5
- New medications I was prescribed: 3
- Medications giving me fucked-up side effects, including insomnia: 3
- Nights on less than 7 hours' sleep: upwards of 30 (~25%)
- Doctor, dentist, pediatrician, and therapy appointments: 13
- Pounds I gained through stress eating and lack of exercise: ~5
- Illnesses in immediate family: 2
- New teeth broken in by Squid, occasioning much unhappiness: 4
- Nights Squid got parented by Pixar: ~12
- Times I took solace in heavy drinking: 2
- Times I cried under desk at work: ~4
- Times I sobbed uncontrollably for more than half an hour, not at work: 2
- Times I sucked it up and asked other people for help: legion
- Remaining energy to cope with, well, anything at all: nonexistent
5 Comments:
Oh girl, I wish I could reach through the computer to take the baby, or make dinner or help some other way. I am sorry it has been so hard, and with those numbers anyone would find that hard.
I hope it helps to know you are loved. If it was me, I'd read this and cry, but be glad there are people out there who care. (heck, both of us cry anyway, so we might as well feel cared for.)
Hang in there Nara...remember the old Harriet Beecher Stowe quote...just as you want to give up is the place and time that the tide will turn (or something like that).
By the way, we have a new baby- Beorn Bladen. He is all that newborns are- wonderful, wearying, etc.
I'll be thinking of you and holding good thoughts that your tide turns.
Sending strengthening thoughts your way.
- Anon
Thanks, all - I'm 4 for 4 on the deadlines now and on a new medication but it's making me pretty sleepy/spacy so I'm still not really able to reach out much. Hopefully it will HELP, though, and I have a holiday coming up, so I'll get a break, too.
Chelsea,
How wonderful - I have been thinking of you all month and I figured young Beorn must be here by now - I've just been too stuck in my own bullshit to call and congratulate you. Soon!
You write very well.
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