New Year resolve

This year I made a nice amorphous resolution - I know, against all the conventional wisdom about what makes them effective, but I had my reasons - to push myself a little more. I imagined that this would take a million small forms - writing more, exercising more, volunteering more, taking small risks, stepping outside of my bubble a little. And yesterday I met up with a long-lost friend (thanks, Facebook!) and had a really nice time reconnecting. We told each other our narratives of the last fifteen-odd years, and laughed, and found that we still like each other. It was good to reach out like that - that's one kind of push.

But David had a lot of great things to say about what he's doing with his life and how he's seeing things that made me realize - out is not the only kind of push. More is not the only kind of push. Maybe pushing can also be to slow down. To pay attention to what I'm already doing. I'm not sure how I might do that yet - there is so much more I want to do, after all, and I am not good at seeing stillness as progress - but it's a thought that I hadn't quite had in quite that way before, and a good one to take into the coming year, as I navigate all the ways I can manifest my resolution.